BFF's

Funny you meet someone and you find yourself attracted, close your mouth I'm a girl he's a guy.
But attracted in a weird yet awesome way... You find you have so many things in common and everyday you find even more.
You talk about your days, your life plans your blunders and your serious fuck ups... yes I said Fuck ups.
At one point you each think wow this could be so amazing and yet at this point you both know the other one needs a shoulder some one to listen and not judge... more on this later

who am I

who am I
I mean really
this question was posed to me this evening
My BFF: who is the real you
My BFF: lol
Gypsy Hearted: Multi faceted
My BFF: no kidding
Gypsy Hearted: The real me is a chevy lovin, coke drinkin, good ole girl who is just as much at home in 501 jeans and bare feet as she is in a cocktail dress and heels
My BFF: lol your to much
Gypsy Hearted: she has two dream cars
My BFF: ....
Gypsy Hearted: 58 apache or a 59 cadi

That was the jest of the conversation
Who am I really...
I don't know
really...

Been awhile since I came here to release whats on my mind...
Been awhile for many things... Another 4th of July has past... 
Just thought I would throw that in there after reading what I wrote in a letter to you four years ago... And look at us now its July 2010...
Here we are now you in what use to be our home now your house, the girls and I living here... 
You wrapped in in guy shows and us out in the world... it cuts to the core to know I forsaw that so long ago... 
Maybe we do speak things into existence when we put it out there into the universe or maybe it was just our destiny... 
Either way I miss how we were once upon a time...
I didn't see the Stroke coming... 
I didn't see that change...
It would have been nice to have a little forewarning there. 
I'm alright for the most part...
I'm getting better daily at masking the things that aren't perfect.

Nietzsche said "That which does not kill us makes us stronger."
If this is true why after all these years am I not a stronger woman...
Even in the bad times you were the sun, the moon, the light of my life

You however have moved on... And I must move forward...
I'm working on it, though its difficult to get my head straight... to wrap my heart around all this change even if I am the one who initiated it all it wasn't the outcome I truly wanted.

what were the lyrics to the song...
Time it was and what a time it was
I have a photograph
Preserve your memories
There all thats left you